closure is a screen door

can't replace
the space
you make
in your heart
for someone.

can only fill it
with bullshit
for a bit until
you get a moment
alone to wonder-

what if?
like five years
didn't happen
or you didn't make
the same mistake
you once made,

to trust yourself.

embarrassing

i know ur crazy

cuz u listen to me.

i know ur selfish

cuz u do what

i would do-

what’s best for u.

i know u knew me,

but on a day-to-day basis

i could be anything

or anyone, so,

you don’t know

me anymore.

all you know is

i would give my life

for something, someone

I don’t believe in.

and i guess

that’s just a little

embarrassing.

fucccccxcv

here

is all

i need…

there

is all i want.

hard wired

to recall

our first

fucks, feels,

forevers…

hard wired

to resist

chasing you.

the curse of consciousness

unconsciously present,

the awareness of

my attention removes me

from the moment

and places me here-

In the past.